One of my 40 by 40 items is to weigh the same on my 40th birthday as I did on the day I hit goal on July 30, 2010. As of the writing of this post, that is 47 days away.

I did something today that I have not done in months. I stepped on the scale. <insert scary ominous music> I typically stay away from it because I taught myself long ago that it isn’t about the number, it’s about your health, how you feel, how your clothes feel, etc. The “non-scale victories” or NSVs are way more important than any number.

I have learned how to eat, how to balance so I don’t feel overly restricted and push back with bad choices, and how to live a healthy, active lifestyle. But sometimes, when you’re ONLY going by how you feel, you can start to make allowances for a few EXTRA “balance” choices, or a few missed workouts.

It wasn’t a catastrophe. I’m not beating myself up, because my clothes fit the same and more core is actually tighter and slimmer than it was five years ago. BUT, the number was a bit higher than I would like it to be, and I know it’s not a “muscles weigh more than fat” situation. I could be doing more, or less, as the case may be. I could be making better choices for lunch at work, not relying on a workout or run to make up for a few extra calories.

focusI need to FOCUS. I’m not going hard core, because I knew when I started this journey six years ago that a super restrictive program would never work for me. I wanted to create a sustainable lifestyle that I would maintain forever. And I have. I just need to focus on making small adjustments, working a little harder during my workouts, making smarter choices for snacks, etc.

I love this quote from Socrates: “The secret to change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”

It’s ultimately not about getting back to where I WAS, because I am healthier now than I was back then. It’s about building on the new me, and making that the best, healthiest me possible.

I’m not going to freak if I don’t reach the exact number I hit in July 2010. That number on the scale this morning simply serves as a wake-up call that yes, I have been getting a bit lazy with things. And that’s cool, I’ll take it. I won’t press snooze, I will wake up, get out of bed and get to work.

It’s time to focus.